Make it Work

I find autumn / winter hard for walking. Trying to fit in being a mother, and full time work, is hard enough – but doing it in drastically less daylight and potentially worse weather just complicates matters.

But, I’m determined to get back into the habit – somehow.  I’m realistic that I likely won’t get as many gorgeous bush walks.  They take time to get to, and I’m not surefooted enough or experienced enough (yet!) to feel comfortable doing them in the dark.

My main options for walking at the moment are to:

  • Go in the morning before I leave for work – before sunrise most days in autumn / winter.
  • Go in the evening after the other half is home to look after children – always after dark in autumn / winter
  • Go in the early evening with all the kids, and likely dog, in tow.  Likely get daylight, but might not equal that much success in actually walking.
  • Sneak a quick walk in between leaving work and arriving home.

Today I did the last option – stopped at a park near home and did a quick circle.

Parrs Park is my ‘local’ park.  I love it because it has both paved and gravel trails, and can do a short loop around the fields, or a slightly longer loop around the fields and out into the creek area, with less people and more open spaces.  I also love it as a main walking partner of mine is now my year old golden retriever, and the area out the back by the stream is an off-lead dog area.  Thus it’s great for both of us getting exercise!

I had a maximum of 30 minutes and did one extended loop – from the playground, around the sports fields, and around the dog area.  No time for more than that – but still achieved around 3,500 steps and approximately 2.5 km.

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I love the fall colours at this time of year.  So much of New Zealand – or at least Auckland – stays green year round, but the changing colour of the leaves completely makes the season for me. IMG_5115

 

The dog park area – with a looping gravel path, plenty of trees and foliage to sniff, and large open spaces to run and chase toys. IMG_5121

 

Restarting with a new vision

Possibly not so much a ‘new’ vision as a refined one.

Things have changed significantly in my life.  I’ve started studying, finished studying, started teaching.  I now have four children ages nearly 10 and under, as well as a full time job.

Things are pretty crazy.

Mental health is largely improved.  I know enough to know it won’t ever be perfect – I’m not even sure there is such a thing as ‘perfect’ mental health.  Maybe if there is, those are the truly crazy people.

However, walking is still a goal – and a goal that I’ve been largely neglecting.

Photography is still a goal as well – and another one I’ve been neglecting.

Right now, it all feels in the “too hard” basket.  I don’t have a reason to do things.  Just doing them for the sake of doing them feels too forced, and possibly too easy to simply give up on.  It’s only me, after all – I’ve been breaking promises to myself all my life.

For the past two weeks, more or less, though, I’ve been sugar free.  This is not a necessity – it’s not a doctor’s order or a sudden wake-up call.  It’s something I do because I know, from my past experiences, that I am addicted to sugar.  I also know that when I give up sugar, and am “clean” from it – I function better, feel better, generally just AM better.

Oh, but that withdrawal period.  It, just by itself, is enough to easily keep on consuming all the sugar.  Why change, when it’s so much easier to keep on keeping on?

This is part of the reason for re-starting the blog as well.  It’s possible no one is reading, or will read, any more.  It’s possible that no one reads blogs really at all anymore.  It’s possible blogs are just the equivalent of used pieces of paper, being caught on the wind and blowing aimlessly, unnoticed by anyone.

But, at the end of the day, it’s me.  It’s about me, it’s by me, and it’s for my own benefit, damn it.  If no one wants to read – that doesn’t effect me. If I give up on myself – THAT effects me.

Almost every time I go walking, I end up feeling better than I did before I started.  Surely that alone is reason enough?

I am reason enough.